Snow in October?!?!

So I was awoken to the pitter patter of frozen rain on my window. In October.
Thanks mother nature for wrecking havoc on my life. I'm enjoying a lazy day of movies and laundry. Maybe later some crafts- I need to get my banner for my booth together for November and December/ winter.

My pants from old navy came in the mail yesterday! I'm officially a size 8 Yay! It felt so good to have pants that actually fit!

The gift is knowing you were there to show your love.
-Elle

Update: 10pm its snowing. For real. I cannot get over this. I am a bump on a log- I did nothing besides make a cute banner for Halloween. The office doesnt dress up so i decided to wear my peacock scarf and paint my nails navy blue. That is the extent of my Halloween costume. Haha.
I spent the day in bed- watching movies ( clueless, sydney white, what happens in Vegas and failure to launch) and I ate junk food all day. Except for lunch mommy made her homemade chicken soup. It has been a wonderful day.

I chatted with the boy and he sent me the most adorable photo of his puppy. I melted. There is no reason for me to not try with the boy. As our mutual friend says I need to try. I agree I'm just stubborn. Hahaha

Become what you admire in others
-Elle

It'sFriday it's Friday gotta get down on Friday...

Thank go its Friday. After the conversation I had last night I think I'm destined to be single. Honestly it's the same game every time. He has everything his heart desires and there is me saving every penny I make and having little to show for it. Well not little but not nearly enough where I want.
I would love to get a Kate Spade bag or Tory Burch shoes. But I don't because I have things I want to get in the future(ie. a house and a retirement account)

Confidence

Sometimes I don't feel as if I measure up to someone's idea of what they imagine but in reality I exceed it but I don't believe I do as good of a job as I do. I need to believe in myself and be more confident in myself. :/



Even on my weakest days, I'm getting stronger....
-Elle

Just breathe.

Today I was eager and I got to work extra early to tackle the pile of work that has been growing the last couple of days. Besides mixing up 2 files (totally my mistake which I fixed) things are going swimmingly. I have to finish putting together 2 files and run them to the judge and start reading some others.
I'm starting to feel a little better about doing this work. I've only been here a month, I am doing fine - per my bosses. Lol

- it's a quarter after 3 and I'm all alone and I need you now.
-Elle

The good life

Work is going much better today. Since we are short staffed I got to go to lunch a little early today and I decided to go people watching. This has to be one of my favorite past times. The local library is one of my favorite spots. Lots of unusual people come and go here. Also the dunking' plays good music. And another highlight of my day-PAYDAYYY! Best day of the week by far.

Also someone telling you that "you are one of the kindest people we've met" ranks pretty high up there.
Also this:
-Im here there's no leaving
-You sure. I'm pretty sure I'm a handful and more.
-I can see that ;)

I just have to keep doing what I'm doing, stay positive and good things will come to me.

flying solo

today was my first day flying (figuratively) solo; I wanted to ease into it and start slow. Today was anything but slow.Switching between both my jobs was extremely hard and it was even harder to do because I dont have all the files in one spot. The most outlandish questions came in and I felt as if I was in so deep. I didnt even have an appetite today. That in itself was so unusual. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I will feel more in control. I am so glad I got my weeks worth of outfits together last night, ironed everything and I do not have to do a thing. Thank god for being so organized!

Tomorrow is my first payday since I started to work. THANK GOD. I felt like an intern since I started. HAHAHA

-all i want for Christmas is you
-Elle

Giggling. That's all I did today. From my silly questions to the "decorations" on my desk. All day was a gigglefest. I am very excited. I'm flying solo on next week (actually a tiny but nervous) but I'm also excited about tomorrow. Happy me.

It's the good life.
-Elle

Shimmer of hope on this rainy day.

I am going for my complimentary Pilates class tonight. That made my day just a little better. Also, in other news- it is pouring outside and I parked in the garage today. I am happy with that decision.
Also, in upcoming news, I see my good friend tomorrow at her new apartment. She recently moved back to the area and I am so so excited to see her. And tomorrow I will be attending a seminar on adoptions.

My babys riding' shot gun singing just a little off key with her tan feet tappin out the back beat.
-Elle

Wonderful end to a great weekend.

I spent the day out with my mommy and daddy. We went down by the water- super choppy water but overall beautiful weather.

I'm looking forward to another wonderful work week. I have some errands to do hopefully tomorrow.

I also inquired about a Plates class in town. I'm really excited to try it. Also the best thing is the first class is free. My favorite price!!

Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes it quietly says, I'll try again tomorrow.
-Elle

Weird dream

So I was hanging out with this guy when he got a call that his uncle had died and he needed to break the bad news to him and bring him home. So the guy tells me what's going on and asks me can I come along- he isnt good in these types of situations. So I agree and we head to the school. We explain to the school officials and they set us up in an empty office. The guy was very nervous and when his brother came in, he just started to stutter. So the guy finally blurts out" uncle Henry died." the brothers face had this expression I've never seen before and I looked over to the guy and he had his head in his hands. I thought to myself" jeeze i have to take control of this situation. So I grabbed the brother and sat him on my lap( I think he was in 2nd or 3rd grade) and he began to cry and he buried his head on my shoulder. I look over to the guy( whose name was never said nor do I know it) and he is in the same position. I start telling the little brother that his uncle loved him very much and he is still with you in your heart and memory. I was hoping the guy would hear this too. After about 10 minutes of this, both the little brother and the guy dried their tears and we left the empty office. We walked him back to class and that's where things get weird....
As the guy and I were trying to make our way out of the school, the guy turns into a girl. So we are walking around looking for a stairwell to get back out. We finally find one but it wasn't the one we came up in and we couldn't remember what floor we needed to go to so we started to walk up and then we realized we were I. The roof. Completely wrong!! So e start walking down the stairs and all of the sudden, we feel as if we were sideways and upside down. We quickly left that stairwell and just ended up sitting in the stairwell because we had no idea where we were going. After what felt like 20 minutes a guy, older distinguished looking man, enters the stairwell, looks at the two of us (which at this point the girl turns back into the original guy) asks us whats wrong And I start to tell him the whole story. He lAughs and says the way out is this way pointing at the same door he just came from. We hurried to follow him through and it ended up being the principals office where we originally started. Again this is where it gets weird. Sitting in the office was the secretary from ferris buellers day off, an old professor of. Mine- dr. Z, and the principal. We e d up sitting around taking to them and then the secretary's flower vase falls off her desk and the guy & me are transported outside to a local restaurant. The guy and I are walking to the outside bar and he said"thanks." then I believe I woke up.

It was a very strange dream. It seemed as if it went on for hours and we we're lost in the school for hours.

Hmm off to the dream dictionary....

Xoxo
-Elle

Four months.

Today is the four months anniversary since I've been on a gluten free diet! Wahoooo!!!! I am a completely different person today. Who would have thought that just taking something silly as gluten out of my diet , I would become so healthy again. I'm happy that I am feeling better but I sure do miss piZza, bagels and pork roll. I know pork roll and cheese on a bagel is a jersey thing but there has to be good ( delicious, ) gluten free bagels somewhere and some company has to be developing gluten free pork roll. They have gluten free hot dogs, please someone develop gluten free pork roll. Pretty please!!!

Also I was very crafty today. I made a Halloween banner and started to make a turkey pin but I need to find ( in my craft boxes) googly eyes. See the photo below. Cute huh??
I have forgotten how awesome it feels to be creative. I love letting my mind wander and see what I come up with.

Be grateful.
-Elle

2 tums and some peppermints

TGIF!! Even though I only worked 4 days this week- I am exhausted. It hit me that I had only 2 more days to learn the whole process of adoptions from a lovely lady who has been doing it for 23 years. Understandably I became very nervous and overwhelmed. I had to say something and I did. They understood my point and agreed with me and reassured me that I wasn't doing this all by myself as I previously thought. That made me feel better. It's like a crash course in adoptions.

My stomach has been giving me some troubles as well.

I'm excited to relax, maybe try something from pinterest that I found.

Cheers it the weekend.
-Elle

For the longest time...

This week feels like it has dragged on for weeks. It was a 4 day work week but it felt like I've worked 5 straight days. :/ tomorrow is Friday yay!

Saturday will be 4 months Gluten Free!! Wahoo. I'm hoping to try a craft that I've found on pinterest. I've bought some of the supplies last week and in sad to say that they are still sitting in the bag :(

She believed she could so she did.
-Elle

Day three... Happiness

Had another awesome day. Went to court. Found my way through the whole building. Met another boy ( I swear this is a joke). My computer went crazy and printed what I needed like a bijallion times.

Overall great day.

Day two... Still awesome

Another great day at work. I met another young single employee today. Yesterday I met the tech guy, today was the clerk. It's quite funny and the whole situation makes me giggle. Everyone wants to set me up! I was feel good and it was good.

You make me smile, please stay awhile.

-Elle

Best day everrr!!!!

Today was such an amazing first day. I feel so blessed to have this opportunity. I am thankful that they have put so much faith in me. I know I won't let them down. I am excited for the first time in a long time for the next 30 + years of my life and career.

never ever give up.
-Elle

Helmets on, it's (really) go time.

Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my career. Yup that's right my career- I start my big girl job at the courthouse. I am very very excited and eager and a tiny bit of nervousness. I have to go to employee relations and fill out lots of papers and get my Id photo taken!!

I need to be bright eyed and bushy tailed early tomorrow morning.

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.

-Elle